scenes from a marriage is the mother of all marriage stories
I found Ingmar Bergman again through a fictional movie, Bergman's Island.
i fear my pain interests you
The two most interesting parts of this book: one, the connection Graves makes between emotional and physical pain, and two, the punk scene setting in the eighties. For all Stephanie Lacava’s talk of not wanting to make a cool girl book, she’s written a cool girl and she’s is a pretty cool girl herself, especially by saying she doesn’t want to be one.
I really thought I was going to cry during this movie, and I really wanted to, but I didn’t. This is how the movie was, too: it almost got there, but not quite. Still, Paul Mescal does repressed depressed so well that it’s hard not to love the sad little shit out of him.
matt white's white white lotus
He might argue that this is not his life’s work because Matt White made a white people thing.
my bench
I like looking at it. I don't like sitting on it.
candy house
i* = i^a
good luck to you, nancy stokes
I watched a Joan Rivers segment (not sure why; I must've been high, in which she said: I don't want to see her body!
stealing ideas (like a ruthless artist)
Asghar Faridi stole an idea. He says he was inspired.
the sound g (gary), pathetic wth a hard end on c, short story "Ugly" and the judgment of things, ted chiang, n+1 usage of postmodern and sameness ugly, gray haters (an appreciation of an overcast sky), on calling different things ugly and wanting more ugly, less beautiful, have I heard a person being called ugly since college? more like: handwriting, and more like my own or as a joke. Other terms, unattractive, off-putting, not for me. Ugly is a hard word. Like fat. The hard g and t. It's an ugly word.
ms. edith wharton
At the very end of the touchstone, there is a line:
the sacklers and the roys
Everything in the Sackler family history is about hidden power and misaligned incentives and money. The Sackler's own an entire integrated supply chain. Welch approves drugs as an official FDA authority and gets paid off of them too. It's also about never having enough, never doing enough, never being enough. Even in Say Nothing, Keefe took these characters and probed so deeply into their lives that you realize it really starts from the beginning.
When I go away to a home where everything is balanced and stable and perhaps a little predictable before its gone stale, I enter these states of uninterrupted, voracious, hungry and desperate reading. Like I have been starved and I can ingest page after page for days. It is an unhinged sort of reading, manic and obsessive. I wake up several times a night and continue where I left off. I live in a state between the page and my life. I wish I could say the same for writing, but it's never been as simple for me, and for that reason, far more rewarding. It is grit and hard, and hard is more fruitful, but where did I get that idea?
the gift
It was the end that made this for me. It's so often the end that makes things for me, which makes me want to end things more; to always get to the end. Anyway, the end of this is good. It's better than this blurb makes it out to be.
We don't do the same drugs no more, we don't do, we don't do.